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ohhay. so i decided that im going to start this thing back up. good thing my blogs are exciting? hah not. anyways, epic picture ;] chocolate fountains are officially the most amazing thing ever created. i had a bunch of family + amy/kryss over for my birthday, which was a week ago. of course, it rained and we all had to cram inside. cause yanno, why would it ever not rain when my family tries to have a partay. but i had a good time ^_^ hmm, how the shit can i make it any clearer that i like you? maybe you already know that and im worrying about nothing. but i always worry about nothing, so no surprise there. i want to tell you, but im not gonna :x im proud of myself for acting the way i've been acting. i usually fuck everything up, but i havent yet. i think im making this extremely obvious, but whatever. i dont care :) i probably sound like a broken record by now, lmao. i dont care though. im just not gonna say anything... yet. im going into the citytomorrow with a shitload of family thats visiting from florida, ohio and westchester. i miss them all. i havent seen them since december D: my moms pissed im going cause they arent my 'real' family. speaking of my mother, her and my stepdad believe i have stopped this blog, so hopefully they dont go back to stalking it again. lmfao, i saw that my blog was on their top visited websites on their laptop. REALLY GUYS?! i dont really have anything left to say. hopefully i dont forget to write in this tomorrow, or else i'll be pissed. goodnight <3>
edit; lol, well. i was happy like 2 minutes ago. but now im not. sucks huh? i think i give up. who was i kidding?

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so im randomly writing again. because i cant contain myself anymore. yes that is my current facebook default. but i wanted a picture. anyways, holyshit. i havent been this happy in a while. i wish you knew it was you making me happy. well, maybe you do. but im not gonna say anything. not yet :] or ever. lmao, idk! im just fine with the way things are for now. you make me smile alotalotalot. gtfhdjskal. GAHH. you're pretty amazing :D

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wow, so i guess i took a pretty long fucking break from this thing. but, i felt like blogging randomly. so whatever. i went to boys like girls / the academy is / the veronicas and nevershoutnever. in the pouring rain. it was terrible! but we got baracade and i got to see christofer drew :) we stayed for everyone but gym class heroes and boys like girls because it started to turrential downpour and it was just too much. so much of the crowd left, i felt bad :\ the veronicas were wearing garbage bag dresses. hahaha, it sounds retarded but they actually looked pretty cool. at least for garbage bag dresses. they had to wear towels around themselves while they were preforming cause they were fucking freezing. they had cool accents though hahaha. anyways, its my birfday :D it doesnt feel like it haha. gah, you make meh so happy :) idk how this would ever work but we'll see what happens. idunno, i hope something happens. but, im not gonna fuck this one up. im only writing here cause i cant tell this all to you, and i just need to get it out. but i wonder how you feel. im not gonna ask. im happy with how things are right now. gahhhh(:

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10:26 pm - i dont think the picture could get any more random than this. its from yesterday actually, at the mall. amy and i went around 4:30/5:00 and we shopped around for a little bit. then at 6, we went over to hot topic to go see under spinning lights. too fucking bad they only let 35 people in the store >:[ it was okay though, because we got japanese food and waited for krysten to meet up with us. we were all sitting and talking about things, waiting for them to be finished playing. they kind of got kicked out of the mall by security :\ a little while later, dom came back & we chilled with him for a while. lmao, i could say some shit about that, but i dont really need to. then we went back to amys house, and stayed up till 5am doing whatever. it was a really good night :) there were so many fucking cute kids at the mall. someone waved to me, but i didnt wave back because i feel like an idiot waving at someone if they arent really waving at you. yanno? lmao. anyways, i wrote about yesterday because nothing really happened today. i left amys around 2. i had a huge headache, so i kinda just sat around the rest of the day. its finally starting to go away. the fourth of july is soon :) im having a few people over for it. idk what we're doing yet. whateverrrr. i wanna go back to the mall soon though. okaibye(:

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i have some words for you- you're an asshole (: anyways, getting ready. going to see under spinning lights at the mall. then hanging out with them. sleeping over amys. i'll write tomorrow about today. if that makes sense. lulz, bai !