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im not gonna do picture while im in pennsylvania. anyways, hello! im pretty bored. im at the pool and my laptop is going to die extremely soon. actually, i have 37 minutes but it will definitely die faster than that. uh, lets see. the phone service sucks here, the internet sucks at our trailer. and i really dont have much to do. i have till friday though, so its not terrible. everything is going well with you :) except for the fact that its really hard to talk since i have like no service, but yanno, its all good. sam's sweet sixteen is on friday! i cant wait :D i miss her so much, and all my other friends. and you. :) im gonna end this post cause i have nothing to talk about, cause we havent done anything exciting. this will prob be the rest of my week. GOOD TIMES. i should go make some friends, lmao. kay bye.

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i am currently sitting on a rock down the road from my trailer in pennsylvania in order to get internet connect. lmfaoooo. okay, i need to go back now. bye!

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i dont feel like writing today. today was extremely boring. i went to my uncles house all day. they played horrible music, lmfao. the end!

51.

right now im kind of bummed. im being ignored, and im not sure why. i mean i didnt do anything, and you didnt want anything to change. maybe im just worrying too much like usual. except i have a feeling something happened. D: i dont know what to do. i hate this so much. everything was fine all day. and now its just like, what the fuck. i really hope im just over-thinking this whole thing. fml. now im just in a really bad mood. this better be resolved by tomorrow, because i hate conflicts. any type of them. asdfghjkl. i dont know what else to say, im just upset. anyways, i went to the outlets and got a pair of white vans, a shirt, dress & 2 scarve thingies. they're all very cute. tomorrow i need to pack for 'vacation' to pennsylvania. i guess it will be fun. i wish i could visit tyler while im there, but he lives 2 hours from where im going to be :\ maybe he'll come drive to see me anyways, who knows haha. for like the zero people reading this, i met tyler at warped. he was filling in for the guitarist of kelsey and the chaos, and now he's permanently (sp?) in the band. i love him :D i need to get my mind off things, but music isnt helping. music always helps, but right now its just pissing me off. i knew i was wasting my time. you say im not, but now i just dont know. did people tell you wrong information? are you taking things the wrong way? or are there no problems at all and im just blowing this whole thing out of proportion? i guess i'll try you again later. im out for now, bye.

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ha, i wish i took this picture. its sweet. i want a camera that can take pictures like this. too bad their a zillion dollars, and i dont want to waste all my money on one when i have a perfectly fine camera. eeeek, my dad is here. i will edit later. bye!

edit; herroh, im back for the edit. its 10:55 pm and i got back from the movies an hour-ish ago. me, amy, joe & vinnie saw orphan. it was the most messed up thing i have ever seen. im not even going to talk about it cause i'll just scare myself. yes, i get extremely scared over scary movies. dont make fun of me x_x i got some pretty sweet advice tonight, and that was 'dont give up'. except you're just making it so fucking easy to give up on you. so i dont know what to do anymore. you're kind of pissing me off in a way, because you're supposedly into me, but you dont show it. so i dont know what you're trying to do here. yay for being extremely obvious <3. i dont care. maybe i'll write more later. i dont know. goodnight.

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haaay :] its 11:52 pm haha i made it just in time. i spent all day with amy :D we had the house to ourselves. we walked to get pizza and ice cream and then we walked to target. it was brutally hot out -_- we put little index cards around the store promoting a band lmfao which im not gonna name, just because. im gonna cut this short today. bye! write later possibly

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2:55 pm - today was pretty un-eventful for so far. in an hour im leaving for the vibe lounge with amy to go see table 21 and under spinning lights. then im staying at amy's for the night :] so it should be a fun night. then tomorrow amy is coming back home with me (hopefully) and we have the house to ourselves ;D so who knows what we'll do. probably nothing lmao. but we shall see. that picture was taken from my phone, i think its pretty good quality for a phone camera. haha okay im done writing pointless shit. i'd edit later but i wont be home to do that. so i'll write about today, tomorrow. plus my blog for tomorrow. i hope that made sense. kbai!

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today was awesome :D this picture is old. but i needed a picture. whatever. i went to the mall with amy and i got 2 pairs of skinny jeans. this guy that worked at pacsun was determined to get us to buy this pair of shoes lmao, idk why. but they were a size 10 and 1/2 and i dont know anyone that's that size (well i probably do but i dont go around asking my friends shoe sizes!) or i would have so bought them haha just to shut the dude up. plus he said he'd give us his balloon rabbit with them hahahaha. then we met up with matt and joe and other people. slightly awkward at first, but it got better, so that was good. i dont really have much to say about that haha, it was a fun time though. then amy's dad came and got us and we all left. hm, what else. oh. you finally know for sure. now what? i dont know. we'll have to see how everything goes. but im not gonna get my hopes up. i try not to for anything, cause you never know. um, some people annoy me. you - shut up. at least you have someone. i would never say anything like that directly to you though cause i dont mean it to be bitchy, but seriously just chill out. you know i love you and we are best friends, but you just have to control yourself sometimes. kay, im done now. you're cute ;) xo.

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6:25 pm - ^^^ thats elvis. this picture is kind of old, but whatever. i refuse to use any pictures but my own, cause this is my blog. um, so i just had to restart my computer because the internet wasnt working. it took about a full 20 minutes to restart. some of the keys barely work. like the space bar and some of the letters. i think its time for a new laptop. this thing freezes when im typing in my status on facebook hahaha. anyways, today was pretty good so far. my mom woke me up at 11. i went to my dads around one and i saw the family again. we played games and stuff and in about 20 minutes we are going out to faletto's for dinner. it should be fun. my mom is kind of mad at me, but whatever. i get to see you tomorrow :) im exciteddd. eep :D i get to share the room with my brother tonight, fun stuff! not. well im going to go freshen up -okay that sounds really weird and makes me seem old- for dinner. lmao, bye :]

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random picture ftw. i look demented. i didnt forget to blog :D alright, anyways ; you're fucking retarded. if you want to talk to me, cut the crap and just talk to me. you dont need to call me at 3 in the morning to try and get my attention. i'd gladly talk to you, although you're one of the biggest assholes i've met. and i can say this because i can 100% guarantee you wont be reading this. and if you do, i dont really care. im going into the city today :] i have 50 minutes before my dad comes and im still not ready. and he will probably be early, as usual. as for you, i still dont think you've got the hint yet. i've been more than obvious without actually saying anything. i think im hoping for too much. i should just be happy with the way things are. but i dont know. i should go finish getting ready now. i'll probably edit later.

"now i wanna know are you catching my drift yet?" - a rocket to the moon

edit ; haaai. so today/tonight i went into the city with a bunch of family. lets see, there was 14 of us. 7 in each car. in one car it was me, my dad, step mom, ilana, mom-mom, poppy, and maddie. in the other car it was uncle bob, aunt debbie, jackie, dani, adam & brandon. we all went out to dinner at ellen's stardust diner. it was pretty cool. all the waiters/waitresses sing and stuff. it was right near times square. im going back tomorrow to hang with everyone, and we have a bbq planned as long as it doesnt rain. i've been working on my singing lol, i guess thats going okay. i dont really plan on doing anything but i just want to be able to sing. haha. anyways. im really looking foward to seeing you :) im just going to use some common sense and tell myself that you must be into me somewhat. i mean, if i think about how much we talk, and things you say to me, it shows something. you amaze me. xo.