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1:06 pm ; awe, me and mommy. sao cute. anyways, people are coming over for my brothers bday / confirmation. it'll be fun. im not even sure who's coming, but i'll find out. everyone is supposed to come at 1:30. im in a pretty good mood today :D my sunburn is going away, thank god. i'll write more tonight. bye! :]

edit @ 9:22 pm ; so everyone just left. well, pretty much everyone left by 7:30 but nik stayed till like 9. today, i learned i have absolutely no coordination, because i could not shoot a basketball, lmao - i fail. we have insane amounts of food left over. maybe we'll have people over for dinner tomorrow night. it stayed completely light out till at least 8! its so exciting :D that means summer is coming very soon. i love when its light out kind of late. i wish i could have went to the beach tonight, maybe like sunken meadow. it would've been so pretty out :] maybe next weekend i can do that, i dont know. we'll have to see. its gonna be nice all weekend, so hopefully i'll get to the beach. or maybe we can go on my neighbors boat to the beach. that'd be fun :] im in a good mood right now, and i have been since friday night. im glad everything is getting better. i love you <3

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off to the beach with krysten and nik :) this picture is from last time i went with krysten and sayum, and sayum decided to make a masterpiece castle. lmfao, the fishies washed up from sea :( so sad. but i'll write more when i get back! bai :D

edit @ 4:42 pm ; so i realized the times on these blogs are completely incorrect, so from now on i'll start putting a time in my entry before i edit. cause i always put a time for my edit, but not for the regular entry. anyways, i got back from the beach around maybe 2 or 2:30, then nik came back to my house. then i dropped him off home, went to my moms, and realized the whole back of my legs are completely burnt! gah, it hurts so bad. i never put sunscreen on, cause i usually never burn. so im shocked i did. im exhausted, i think its nappy time :] <3

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wooh! today was so much fucking better than yesterday and the day before. i feel so relieved now, knowing that you're on the way to feeling better when these past 2 days havent been that great for you. i feel like such a good friend being there you when you needed me :) sayum, i luff you! gah, today was just interesting. scary, nerve wrecking, upsetting. but its all over with now, and now im in a really good mood :] my lights are flickering again >.< (ps, some of this just got erased and idk what i said so i'll try and remember) --> im glad you dont hate meh, and we dont have to be enemys. im glad all the drama is finally starting to stop. :Dedit @ 11:38 pm; so i hung out with sayum and christian tonight. i was fun ^_^ we took the picture above right before me and christ both left. we pretty much just walked to places, and christ abused us o_O lmao, i like this picture a lot. i was happy to put sayum in a good mood since she's been sad lately. im going to the beach tomorrow with nik and kryss. well idk abouts teh nik, cause he wont answer his phone >:[ lulz, we'll see though. i guess im done for today. i love my best friends <3

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lulz, its a sad puppy :\ today was a bad day. really bad. i couldnt get that one thought out of my mind. gah, i dont know what to say. just know that i am here for you at all times and you mean so much to me :) i dnw you upset or anything like that. because you are one of my bestfriends, and it hurts when one of your bestfriends is hurting inside. im glad you are kind of better now. i'll write more later, cause im going to my dads house now. bye <3

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so today, was my brothers confirmation. i didnt get to go and had to go to school. i got my sister off the bus around 3:45 and then me and my family went to friendlys. i finally got a smoothie! i've wanted one since like forever ago. that would be why its my picture o_O i didnt really know what to put for a picture today anyways. this weekend im going to the beach ^_^ im really excited. i love the beach. you can just lay on a towel on the sand and just relax, listen to your ipod and forget about all your problems. its really relaxing. you can fall asleep to the sound of the ocean. and im going with kryss & nik so i get to be with people i love :) i feel like alot of people werent in great moods today. sayum if you read this, feel better girl <3

edit @ 9:19 pm ; im extremely scared. a little after i posted, i started a family revolution by lowering the television volume. my little sister flipped a shit. >:[ but now im really scared, worried, i dont even know. hopefully tomorrow will be better. <3

edit @ 11:00 pm ; woopsehs, a little too soon. i couldnt help it though, im very emotional right now. i kind of feel fucking retarded right now though. :\ anyways, some shit went down tonight (not bad. more like sad) , and it left me thinking how lucky i am to have the friends that i have. i dont want to lose them, ever.

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back to school today, kill me now. today should be... interesting, to say the least. i'll definately be writing when i get home, goodbye :X

edit; so, nik just left :\ school wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. surprisingly, the people i didnt want to see didnt give me any problems. i hope everyone's learning just not to hate. its pointless to do so. i dont know what to feel right now. theres a teeny problem i have, but i know its all in good fun, but sometimes, idontknow, i just dont like it. but its not really worth bringing up. im happy, you're happy, its all good :) today, i realized that you really do care. you care if im upset, mad, or even happy. im glad you do care, not many people do. i love you <3. so this happened last night, but i spent some time with my family outside and also my neighbor. we had a good time and laughed alot. i even talked to my stepdad some, and let me tell yah, i NEVER do. i probably should more. i know you'll never read this, but i do love you. and you're a really good person. im sorry that i dont talk to you that much, i'll try harder. i have nothing else left to say really. maybe i'll write more later. bye(:

edit again; okay well this is going to be my last edit for the day (maybe). i want to talk about my friends. i dont have that many friends in all honesty. and i wanted to dedicate this little section to the friends that i do have. i love you all <3.
sayum - also known as my bbycksz. thank you for understanding. you understand things that sometimes no one else ever would. i feel like we have some of the same problems and its good in the sense that we can talk about it. i love the fact i can tell you anything, and you'll never talk shit about me. we dont even hangout that much, but you're definately one of my closest friends. you always make me laugh, and put me in a good mood if im feeling upset. lmao, i kind of feel like a lesbo now cause i feel like i'd say this stuff to a guy. but i dont care, its the truth. :] thanks for being such a good friend and always being here for me. i love you <3
kryss - let me just tell you, i think its fucking amazing we havent been in ONE fight since kindergarten. we were bestfriends since we were 5 years old and our friendship has only grew. i love the fact that you are so easy going and if we ever do have a problem with each other, we'd talk it out instead of being bitches to each other. i can always count on you, and you're one of the few people i trust. im so glad we're bestfriends :D i love you, and i know we'll be friends till the day we die <3

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its extremely nice out today and im loving it. im so glad its finally sunny out and not raining every other day like it was a week or so ago. i was just outside tanning, but i dont do good in extreme weather (either really hot or really cold) so i went inside and decided to blog. my grandma is coming over for dinner tonight. i havent seen her in a while, which is surprising because she is usually always here. it will be great to see her. my mom has been telling me she hasn't been happy lately and its kind of worrying me. everyone doesnt live forever, and i dont want to lose my grandma. well, on a better note, there isnt many school days left :D im super excited for summer, except for going to pennsylvania. ugh, its going to suck being away from you. it'll be hard this summer because we're both going away a lot, so hopefully we'll be away during some of the same times. but i dont have to worry about that yet, i still have all of june (: im listening to green day at the moment, & im remembering when i was littler and i was obsessed with them, and i knew like four songs. hahaha, i was weird. i thought i was so cool for listening to them. its pretty funny actually. i feel like the weather has been changing with my mood? idontknow, its weird. when it was all rainy i wasnt really happy with my life, and now its all sunny and crap and im happier than i've ever been in a while. its kind of cool. i want to go swimming, really badly. my pool is open, but not ready yet. i barely went in it last year, but i think im gonna go in it more this year. i miss my bestfriends, i havent seen them since friday D: hopefully i'll hang out with them next weekend or during the week after school. i still want a smoothie. i'd walk to carvel, but i have no money and no one to go with. maybe i'll go back outside as long as i dont die from the heat. i'll probably wind up writing more later, iloveyou <3

edit; this is the first edit of the day. i changed the picture. i wrote down my feeling about you since im not ready to tell you just yet. but i do want you to know i care about you so much :) <3

edit again; going to bed now, i was so tempted to say iloveyou. it almost slipped out, but i caught it. i do love you, i just dont know if i should tell you yet. goodnight <3

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so i woke up today from a nightmare. i've had this one before, although i cant quite remember what it was exactly about. all i know is that i've definitely had it before. i wish i knew what it meant. i always have re-occurring dreams. oh well. today, im probably hanging out with nik, and then going to a barbecue, where i will know no one. we barely even know the people who are having it, yet they are our family friends? i dont really get it. once again, my mom was yelling at me today. i feel like i go through the same thing every single day. i dont know what the problem is sometimes, but i really cant stand fighting. it just pisses me the fuck off. its almost 1pm and im still in my pajamas, but im working on getting ready. i really shouldnt be blogging right now, cause im supposed to be getting ready. oh well, i just need to find something to wear, which usually is the hardest part. im so picky about my clothing and how it fits, its quite annoying. i keep coughing cause im using a shitload of hairspray >.<



edit; its now 9:40pm, and my activities for the day are over. im freaking exhausted. today was a really good day :) it definitely turned out better then i thought it would be. i finally had a cupcake today, and i've been dying for one for a while, lolol. theres SO much i could say, but i just cant seem to put it into words. you are truly amazing whether you think so or not. its the little things that get me, i dont know why, but it just makes me so happy. you make me so happy. ghfjdkslsahjkg. im speachless <333


edit again; okai even though its like five minutes later, i felt that i wanted to write more. i feel like i've been fighting less with my brother, and to be honest - i like it. when we were little, i would be so over protective of him, and show so much love for him. before a while ago, we would fight like crazy, and sometimes even physically fight. i actually was extremely mean to him, but i've found us becoming sort of closer. im glad this is happening because i dont want to grow up and not even talk to him. my mom barely talks to our uncle, which is pretty sad. i'm always complaining about my family, but i guess overall they're pretty sweet. i dont know what else to say. moving on though, i cant stop thinking about the way you make me feel. its the most amazing feeling in the world. i could say so much more, but i dont really want to pour my heart out into this blog. maybe i'll write it down on a piece of paper. i need to tell someone, but i cant just randomly tell it all to you. i love you. <3

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well, im moving my blog to here. i dont really remember what i said in my other one. i dont have much to say right now. im glad we can open up to each other. its an amazing feeling knowing that you have people there for you whenever you need them. i love you. and i love all my best friends. <3