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it wont let me change the size of the image and its quite irritating. speaking of irritating, YOU ARE. you don't trust me at all. it's pretty ridiculous. im fucking sixteen years old, i'm not a little kid anymore. so why can't you trust me at all? it's so stupid i cant even begin to explain. you treat me like i'm 10 years old. fucking retarded. anyways, on a better note, this time tomorrow i shall be a very happy camper :D im hanging out with steve, wooh! aha, so that'll be funnn. with the exception of my sister who will probably even more annoying than she usually is. that's how it goes whenever i have a guy over. so im listening to christmas music? cool. i love christmas time, :] its so pretty! like, the christmas tree. haha. speak of the devil, my mother just called. FUN. haha. im getting so fucking pissed off. so im gonna end this now. bye.

edit; so i got off the phone with my mom, and that pretty much changed my mood around completely. basically, i can only see steve for an hour. if i even do see him. good thing im in a horrible mood and i havent finished my homework. fuck u.s. history. tomorrow is going to be so shitty. i dont want to sit through school. and come home, and do more work. i have an italian project due in 15 days. that i dont even know what im doing. IB sucks ass. people suck, too. except for you. and my friends. haha, blah :| i dont get how everything can be going perfectly and then it just comes crashing down out of no where. that makes no sense to me. except that's usually what happens with everything in life. listening to kissing in cars on repeat, WIN. you're pretty much the only thing that's keeping me sane right now. thank you, xo.

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no one reads this thing, so i figured it'd be a good spot to come back to and write when i felt like it. right now is one of those times. so im listening to kissing in cars on repeat. kind of depressing me, but im not in a good mood. so its okay. i've just been thinking and i dont think this is going to work. i mean it technically could, but it'd be hard. and you dont even fucking try or make any effort. you dont even show me how you're feeling. how am i supposed to deal with that? its not possible. you arent making it possible. idk how much longer i can continue with this. even though i want to, a lot. i want to see you. but you dont even try. but yet you want to see me too? oh really? then why dont you fucking try. i dont get you. i dont get this whole situation. i've been slowly giving up from the beginning. thanks, thanks a lot, for not showing me how you really feel. thanks for making me feel this way, upset and doubtful. thank you so fucking much.

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im not gonna do picture while im in pennsylvania. anyways, hello! im pretty bored. im at the pool and my laptop is going to die extremely soon. actually, i have 37 minutes but it will definitely die faster than that. uh, lets see. the phone service sucks here, the internet sucks at our trailer. and i really dont have much to do. i have till friday though, so its not terrible. everything is going well with you :) except for the fact that its really hard to talk since i have like no service, but yanno, its all good. sam's sweet sixteen is on friday! i cant wait :D i miss her so much, and all my other friends. and you. :) im gonna end this post cause i have nothing to talk about, cause we havent done anything exciting. this will prob be the rest of my week. GOOD TIMES. i should go make some friends, lmao. kay bye.

54.

i am currently sitting on a rock down the road from my trailer in pennsylvania in order to get internet connect. lmfaoooo. okay, i need to go back now. bye!

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i dont feel like writing today. today was extremely boring. i went to my uncles house all day. they played horrible music, lmfao. the end!