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no one reads this thing, so i figured it'd be a good spot to come back to and write when i felt like it. right now is one of those times. so im listening to kissing in cars on repeat. kind of depressing me, but im not in a good mood. so its okay. i've just been thinking and i dont think this is going to work. i mean it technically could, but it'd be hard. and you dont even fucking try or make any effort. you dont even show me how you're feeling. how am i supposed to deal with that? its not possible. you arent making it possible. idk how much longer i can continue with this. even though i want to, a lot. i want to see you. but you dont even try. but yet you want to see me too? oh really? then why dont you fucking try. i dont get you. i dont get this whole situation. i've been slowly giving up from the beginning. thanks, thanks a lot, for not showing me how you really feel. thanks for making me feel this way, upset and doubtful. thank you so fucking much.