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random picture ftw. i look demented. i didnt forget to blog :D alright, anyways ; you're fucking retarded. if you want to talk to me, cut the crap and just talk to me. you dont need to call me at 3 in the morning to try and get my attention. i'd gladly talk to you, although you're one of the biggest assholes i've met. and i can say this because i can 100% guarantee you wont be reading this. and if you do, i dont really care. im going into the city today :] i have 50 minutes before my dad comes and im still not ready. and he will probably be early, as usual. as for you, i still dont think you've got the hint yet. i've been more than obvious without actually saying anything. i think im hoping for too much. i should just be happy with the way things are. but i dont know. i should go finish getting ready now. i'll probably edit later.

"now i wanna know are you catching my drift yet?" - a rocket to the moon

edit ; haaai. so today/tonight i went into the city with a bunch of family. lets see, there was 14 of us. 7 in each car. in one car it was me, my dad, step mom, ilana, mom-mom, poppy, and maddie. in the other car it was uncle bob, aunt debbie, jackie, dani, adam & brandon. we all went out to dinner at ellen's stardust diner. it was pretty cool. all the waiters/waitresses sing and stuff. it was right near times square. im going back tomorrow to hang with everyone, and we have a bbq planned as long as it doesnt rain. i've been working on my singing lol, i guess thats going okay. i dont really plan on doing anything but i just want to be able to sing. haha. anyways. im really looking foward to seeing you :) im just going to use some common sense and tell myself that you must be into me somewhat. i mean, if i think about how much we talk, and things you say to me, it shows something. you amaze me. xo.