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9:49 pm - fortune cookies :D they were from amy's house last friday. they say "dont let unexpected situations throw you" and, "your secret desire to completely change your life will manifest". i thought they were cute. so, today was a little disappointing. it started with me knowing absolutely shit on my math final. good thing it wasnt a regents, or i'd be in summer school. although, i probably didnt do as bad as i think. i couldnt hangout with anyone tonight, because they all have early tests tomorrow, and i have none. but, i do think i finally understand something. and i feel terrible about it. not because it's my fault, but just because i feel bad. all the times i've complained about my family. but i really do have it good. im pretty darn lucky. i dont know if you'll read this, or if you'll know it's about you, but as i've told you, im always here for you. and i want you to know that, and understand that im not going anywhere. no matter what, or where we stand. im really sorry that you are upset :( i wish i could help, but there is simply nothing i can do. what i can do, is make you happy in other ways. and i plan on doing that. so anyways, im not going with my family on vacation to pennsylvania in july. to be honest, im pretty happy about that. i dont know, its just not my thing. i dont think my mom and stepdad understand that, but i just dont enjoy it. i will miss them though. its officially summer! too bad it wont stop raining. it doesnt feel like summer at all. actually, this feels so weird. i dont have to go back to school for like, two months or so. i need that to sink in, and then it will feel like summer. and sun. im officially free :D yayayay. oh! i almost forgot to mention my new bestfriend mason. hahahahaha, happy? :] lulz. i think thats all for now, goodbai :D